So, as most of you know, we have two beautiful children of our own, and have been wanting to increase this number. We had a loss in July which was difficult. Five months later, and I still have moments when I think about that little soul. And as if the loss alone wasn’t enough, the hormone fluctuations brought back many of the symptoms that I had experienced with PPD after the birth of number two. To make a long story short, it’s been a tough couple of months.
But, in the end, we have wonderful and joyous news to share!
Number 3, our little June Bug, is in the making. That’s right folks, I am still capable of making people. In fact, I’m growing one right now. Yes, you heard it right. I’m growing another person. I have a doppler, and have found his/her heartbeat at least 2 times a week (ok, I find it every time I check, and I only check a couple of times a week), and the heart rate has been a wonderful 158 bpm. So far I’ve been taking 2 hour naps every day, and the sleeping from about 7pm to 6am. I’ve been nauseous and full but still starving all at once. I’ve wanted nothing but roast beef sandwiches, but being the good little vegetarian that I am, I’ve been eating a steady diet of Trader Joe’s Palak Paneer Mahkani and Naan. I’ve also had my fill of whole wheat bread, vegan mayo, colby jack cheese, roasted tofurkey slices, and crunchy crunchy lettuce sandwiches. I could really go for some buffalo wings and blue cheese dressing. I’ll settle for Frank’s Red Hot and Pizza.
So, that’s the news! And that’s why I can’t fight this cold turned sinus infection. And that’s why I’ve been hiding for months and months. And that’s why I have been having a hard time keeping up with my correspondence and editing, and general picture taking – because I’ve felt like doing absolutely nothing. More good news, the second trimester is rapidly approaching, which means I have been feeling better. In fact, I stay up until 9pm last night, and had a relatively productive day yesterday!
Everyone seems to think its a boy, and I’m sorta feeling boy too. However, I thought Aubrie was a boy, so what do I know. I also am aware that boys seem to be the trending gender, and statistically SOMEONE HAS TO HAVE A GIRL, and it will probably be me. Do I want one over the other. Of course not. In fact, I don’t even know what I would do with boy junk at this point. But, whatever it is it is, and whatever it is, I’ll love. And I’m just so happy THAT I CAN STILL GROW PEOPLE!
I hope you have a wonderful weekend!